Appointments

With all my focus surrounding this upcoming Tuesday's ultrasound I forgot to update on what has been going on with me physically. This pregnancy has been really different from my last, and while I have spent a significant amount of time feeling perfectly healthy I have lost more and more weight than I did with Mason, which is strange to me since I could keep nothing down for months.

Before I got pregnant with Mason I was over 150lbs (which is a lot for this 5'0 girl) and I lost 20lbs with him. In the months after he left us I put a lot of effort into Operation Baby Farm... and that included putting more effort into improving my eating habits and increasing my exercise routine. I have kept to both of those even after I learned I was pregnant. I understand that women have cravings while pregnant, but I don't think turning into a garbage disposal is appropriate for me. So I make an effort that if i am going to indulge it isn't in large amounts. I also get full really quickly so I haven't had much success finishing any meals. The perk to that is I am hungry again in a few hours so I guess it's good for my metabolism.

I was at the point of exercising a few times a week while being mindful of what I ate (for the most part-not trying to claim to be perfect here) and I have continued to lose weight each week. I only use the scale in my bathroom. In fact, I completely ignore the one at the doctors office because it is always different than what my constant scale at home says. I'm a big believer in sticking to one scale when you are being mindful of the ups and downs of your weight. According to my scale I've lost about 15-20 pounds since I found out I was pregnant. It's weird because everywhere else is slimming down but my belly has swollen up to make me look further along than I actually am. I wonder what I would look like without my belly and how skinny I would actually look.

I can't say I'm hating it, because when I first started gaining weight I focused on how my jawline would disappear and I finally have my jaw line back! I was worried though that my baby was somehow suffering from all the weight loss but my doctors kept reassuring me that I am just living healthy while many women use pregnancy as an excuse to eat everything and gain way more. So I felt confident I was making the right decisions.

Then the last few weeks I've been having really horrible migraines. Migraines are something I've been suffering with in my entire adult life, but pregnancy has been known to make headaches more intense. I finally got a chance to go into the doctors after not sleeping for almost 30 hours to try and get some answers. They told me it was ok to take vicodin- something I had been avoiding because I thought it would be bad for the baby. The dr insisted that not doing anything, not sleeping and not being able to keep any food down for days on end would do worse than taking a vicodin. (My migraines usually make me sick to my stomach even without the help of pregnancy hormones and this latest one was no different.)

My dr also suggested that I see a neurologist just to make sure everything looks ok. The other thing she did voice concern with was my weight loss which totally took me by surprise since they just spent months telling me not to worry about it. She isn't so concerned that she wanted to take drastic measures- my head always seems to go there- but she wanted me to see a specialist to make sure that I am getting what I need to. She explained that no matter what I put in my body the baby gets it first and I basically get what's left over. She was more worried that I was suffering... which I didn't get. My first instinct is if the baby is fine then who the heck cares about me? I know that isn't the most rational way of thinking but its how my brain was working at the time.

I knew I was being healthy, and my dr knows I am being healthy... so why do i have to see a specialist? I'm a little nervous about it, but as I think more and more about it I'm excited to see what they suggest. I got a juicer from a friend and have been researching recipes (and have failed at a few attempts) because I figured it was the best way to get nutrition into me in the morning while I am going through morning sickness. Yes, at 16 weeks I am still feeling the morning sickness but it's a walk in the park compared to what I went through with Mason so I try not to complain. I'm trying to look at these upcoming appointments with optimism because really I just don't have any room in my brain for anything else.

So now I go back to being consumed by counting down the days until Tuesday, but as always, I will keep you all informed on how these turn out.

3 MORE DAYS!!!!!