Thursday, May 14, 2015

Even When You Aren't Trying, Things Are Happening

I just re-read my last post about resolutions and I'm pretty happy to report that it's May and I have stuck to them really well. I reached a turning point back in December, and I continued to let things happen all around me and many of my prayers were answered. Since December...

I got a new job... well an old job. Long ago the hubby and I worked for the same company and before I left I was promoted to a supervisor. I loved that job (didn't love the boss... she was literally the WORST) and I always resented the reason (her) I left. One day my hubby came home and said that they really needed someone in my old department. I told him to let his boss know that if she was ok with a married coupled working in the same store that I would be interested in just a part time position to get a little extra cash. I walked into that interview hoping for a part time job and left with my old job making more than before. Talk about blessings... another chance with the job I really did enjoy and I get to work with my hubby again? I literally couldn't have prayed for that to go better.

My little Etsy shop has truly flourished. I have over 4000 customers and a steady stream of orders every week. It's a little tricky balancing mom life, a full time job and my shop but I think I've proven that I don't sit still well. Although my life is crazy hectic, I am enjoying it to the fullest.

I didn't lose any more weight. I did maintain, but for some reason my hormones are set on me being this size. No amount of exercising or dieting was doing anything so I decided to embrace it all, and you know what? I've never felt more sexy in my life. There's something about accepting the hand your dealt that really makes you see your life to the full potential.

Kev and I celebrated our big 10-4! 10 years together and 4 years married. Our anniversary falls on St. Patricks Day and we got married the following Saturday. It worked out this year to have an entire anniversary weekend. We went out of town and did the things we used to do when we were falling in love. Art museums, long walks, good food... it was really wonderful.

Ok now, lets talk about baby news. We officially gave up trying back in February. I wasn't kidding when I had the realization that Averie was enough. We wanted to just go back to being romantic and not having a bigger purpose for our sex life. Things were going really well. Then right before our anniversary I check to see if I was ovulating, just in case. Nope! A big fat negative which was actually a big go-ahead for us to fully enjoy our anniversary weekend. (And boy did we! Sorry mom...)

The day before Easter I knew I was supposed to get my period and I had been super tired. My husband kept teasing me because I started craving strange things. But I kept thinking, I wasn't ovulating... he's got to be wrong. So, I took a test to shut him up. Instead, it shut me up. That was about 8 or so weeks ago, and this is what we posted on facebook yesterday.


Can you believe I kept it a secret so long? Me neither! I'm about 10.5 weeks and we decided we had to announce, because my tummy has a mind of its own. Granted, I was a little fluffy to begin with, but its already changing shape and rounding out. There's no mistaking it... even if I do look more like 5 months pregnant I'm working on being ok with it. I just have this irrational fear that I'll look like Kate plus 8 at the end of this. Plus, we are such open books that if something was to go wrong at this point, it's not like we wouldn't be open about it. But... keep those fingers and toes crossed that everything continues to be fine.

So, how has this pregnancy been? SUUUUPER different from Mason and Averie. At this point with both of them I had already been hospitalized twice for dehydration. With Averie I lost over 25lbs. With this baby I've only had 2 bad days. I feel exhausted and nauseous a lot, but those 2 days where I threw up non-stop are still wins in my book compared to my other pregnancies. I've gained about 2lbs and I'm hoping it plateaus for a bit since I was already big to begin with. I have all new pregnancy cravings: iced tea, strawberries, and tons of veggies. Basically protein of any kind makes me feel like running the other direction. A total 180 from Averie- before her I was more vegetarian inclined and then once I got pregnant with her all I wanted was ALL THE MEAT.

We told our family and close friends around 6 weeks. Mainly because it was around my birthday and they would be onto me for not drinking. How did we tell them? I made Averie a "Big Sister" shirt and just walked out to greet them. It was a good minute before anyone read her shirt. They were all in shock (they knew we had given up trying after 2 years) but they were all very happy. It was sweet and simple just the way I've wanted things to go with this pregnancy.

We just hit the mark where I could do the 1st trimester testing, so I went in and did all that blood work. Hopefully they'll have the results by my next appointment and I can start to feel excited. It's very strange to want something so badly for so long... not get it and resolve to giving up... and then be handed the very thing you wished for. You would think I'd be over the moon, but I guess my cautious heart is winning right now. Don't get me wrong, I am thrilled to be pregnant! I guess my heart is just not letting me get attached to this one yet, not until I get all the news I need to feel ok.

So far, I don't have GD. I am still nursing Averie so my Dr wants me to continue until the half way mark. She's pretty confident Averie's nursing is helping keep the GD away, and I've already started eating the diet just to be safe. I'm waiting on that 2nd trimester energy to kick in before I start my pre-natal workouts. I am high risk again, but if the GD stays away then we could be looking at a totally normal pregnancy and delivery. Oh yes, you may be wondering the due date. So are we! They keep changing it from Dec 3rd to the 8th so we have to wait until my 15 week appointment to get a final measurement and due date, but its looking like early December is our window. Funny, since my mother in law forbid December babies... but our anniversary being in March... it was sort of destined to happen haha!

Ok, I think this post is as long as it can be for now, I'll definitely be better at updating this thing now that I actually have something to talk about ;) Leaving your life to play out in God's hands is certainly fulfilling and wonderful, but it didn't give me a whole lot to blog about haha!